Still can’t sleep unaided. Wondering did we do enough? Should we have been there more? Were you in more pain than you told us about? Even things like did we clear the bungalow too quickly? My mind won’t stop. Handing over the keys to rosewood was hard. And now I am thinking of the day I walked into rosewood on the day you died. Perhaps when we give you the send off you wanted we can be sure you are at rest. I hope all that we are planning is irrelevant to you and your already up there laughing and free of any suffering. We were on the bloodmoor roundabout today and I nearly said to daniel ‘shall we pop in mums?’ It’s hard to see an end to this Mum we all miss you and the light has dimmed on us all a little since you passed. I continue to hope it was fast, you had no regrets and you lived the best life you could and were happy. That’s all we can hope for. Xxxx love and miss you